My life has definitely gone in directions I couldn't have predicted. And though I am happy with where I am at this point, I always have that voice in my head asking me... Where are you headed? What does the future hold? Are you on the right path towards achieving your goals and dreams? Will you be "OK" in the future?
Modeling was something I wanted to do since I was a child and the fact that I now do it full time and spend my days traveling and meeting all sorts of new and artistic people in all sorts of places is thrilling. But I can't help but think about the fact that it is a job with a deadline. With the way the industry is changing I can hope that it is something I can do for longer than just my 20's... actually, I'm fairly certain I can, but I know I want to do even more than just being a model. I want to do something that I can really use my personality, creativity, and people skills to the fullest. I want to be a host. I want to have a talk show. I want to be able to help people achieve their own dreams. I'm sure I'll "want" many more things. I wouldn't say I'm completely lost by any means but I would say I am in need of some restructuring and re-prioritizing in my life.
I think it is important every now and again to step back and analyze where we want to go and how we are going to get there. It is easy to get distracted by all that is happening in our lives but even if we don't know exactly where we are going, we can at least focus our energy in the general direction and trust that we'll get there eventually.